you
you are frightened
of me
the rage
a howling maddened thing
rises in me again
clawing at my insides
demanding freedom
i am a beast
with strength to crush your bones
fast hands and faster temper
a maelstrom within
wild and reckless
stay back
i can smell your fear
you recognize me
the danger
the darkness
the giddy violence in my eyes
it rolls off me in waves
warning you away
you skitter like little frightened rabbits
before my hunger
and i laugh
i laugh
in pain
in rage
in despair
because
in the smallest darkest corner of my heart
i yearn
i want
i need
i am but a cub who wishes to be comforted
a small thing
running running running
only in my mind
laughable escape
there is none
bound and blind and silenced
in a field of burnished blades
not with rope you bind me
your promises are only words
sugar coated lies
a thousand silver threads
the lines between
i trip, stumble
tangled in your web of truth
deceiver of the absolute
blinded by the sight
surreality
nightmares cannot be true
if dreams are only lies
my eyes then turn against me
what you say is so is never so
and what is so? you say
silenced by the choking tears
the screaming red lines
that voice my pain
unseen, unheard
unreal
for i am a deceiver too
defiant in my knife